Am I ok?
Am I ok?
I’ve gotten a ton of messages from really great people asking if I was ok. I’ve had a hundred or so messages on Facebook, Twitter, email and instant messaging asking why I’ve suddenly gone silent.
The reasons are painfully personal, but I thought I’d break the silence to let everyone know.
My wife and I are getting a divorce.
We met when she was 19 and I was 20. We’ve been together for 18 years. She’s a truly amazing person who I’ve spent 1/2 of my entire life with. She’s my best friend, a fantastic mother and woman. We have two amazing sons (age ten and eight) who we both adore. Ultimately, we’ve evolved into different people who need different things.
While we’ve done this whole process lovingly, it’s been unbelievably painful and disruptive. No doubt, the hardest time in my life. The best way to describe it is like a thousand small deaths (and some not so small). And I can’t even put words to how hard it was to fracture my son’s reality by telling them the news.
So am I ok?
No. I’m really not. I’m not completely myself yet. But I will be. This is hard and I’m grieving. As much as you hear about a ton of other people doing it, it’s hard to grasp until you live it. I wish I could say I was strong enough to box it in and not let it impact the rest of my life, but I guess I’m not that person. I do however, feel like I’m finally at a place where I can start sharing again. So, my voice will join again soon.
I certainly never thought I’d blog about all this. But here I am.
